This was the most difficult run I've ever completed. The distance wasn't new, but the level of effort was beyond my wildest dreams. The course itself wasn't even that technical.
I've decided not to push forward to the 50 miler next month. I'll reach for the 50k distance again, this time with a healthier and stronger body. The last month has been its own hell of physical, emotional, and career challenges. I don't need a new distance at Hell's Hills to prove I'm tough.
I know I'm tough. I survive on love.