If I'd known it would have turned out that way, I would have done something different. I still don't know what.
I was so self-absorbed, I couldn't see the effects I was having on other people. I was selfish and thinking only of yours truly.
There comes a point when your actions create a path that you don't necessarily control. We're not alone in this world. I acted as if I was. I tried to keep on my own path, but I failed. I was stepping on people by the end.
I've spent an entire day feeling like my "old" self. I feel stupid, worthless, and undeserving of any kindness. I don't feel like I can breathe. I wish I could run away from life.
I hate that I caused someone to feel exactly the kind of pain that I know so well. Lost. Left. Alone. It's horrible.
I'm sorry. I can try better next time, no matter what crisis I feel. I can be more aware.
I'm so sorry.