Doubts, questions, fears.
I think I have moments of everything.
Peace, calm, acceptance.
I'm all over the place. I don't know whether I want to be left alone in a cocoon or if I need to be around my friends more. Something needs. Maybe something is too much.
I think I'm trying too hard, in any case.
Pre-race jitters? Definitely some of that.
Missing my kid? A lot of that.
Get yourself together, girl, cuz this is a mighty fine life. 39 is beautiful.